I don't have the memories of my mother struggling. I want my girls to remember the insanity. The chaotic collection of all that we encountered together as a busy, sporadic family.
"Am I ruining my kids? Will they remember all the times 'mommy lost her cool'? How can I ever explain to them that I didn't mean to sound rushed, exhausted and irritated.... I loved them, I wanted to sound like I loved them so much more than I do...!"
Not a self-care down there list, or a "Top 15 Things You Need For Baby!" but a simple, "Day to Day Now That You're Home." Something similar to a homeschooler's flexible lesson plans for the week.
I wanted to have a visual of all the things I needed in order to be as comfortable as possible, not just for my baby, but for my own sanity.