I learned that when we confess, we are opening up the wound so that He can heal us, truly heal us. No more 12 steps to 'self care', no more band-aid solutions that eventually lead to infection and spread into other areas of life. God wants the matter settled, once and for all so that we can move on to the next course in our spiritual growth.
Struggling to find peace when I look at the world. Can some of my mature brothers and sisters in Christ help me?
I could feel the heat of the day, the echoing of the sun's rays off the pavement as I ran between two fields. Both full and ready for harvest. Something green and tall to my left and bright, golden wheat to my right. While I felt no pain, other than the burning of the scorched blacktop on my bare feet, I noticed I was bleeding.
This is important to understand. We were not saved by the blood of Christ to stand silently in the back. We were saved so that His works can be done through us, so that others may be saved as well, so that our old ways become dead to us and we can wear with honor The Armor of God.
Have you ever felt His silence? What was happening in your mind, in your life during this time? How did you react?
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Still, as difficult as this road has been, the rewards have been twice as powerful. The reward of knowing that my children will have their mother, not an absent parent. The reward of knowing others have found comfort in the testimonies shared here, if only for a moment. Just long enough to spark the fire of recovery within them as well. These alone have been an honor I had underestimated and at times over looked.
I tell myself I am speaking up for those who can't. I tell myself that God gave me this gift not for my own purpose but for His works to be done. I tell myself of course there will be haters.
But none of that makes it any easier. Especially not when that hate and judgement is the same voice I have fought against my entire life.