This is important to understand. We were not saved by the blood of Christ to stand silently in the back. We were saved so that His works can be done through us, so that others may be saved as well, so that our old ways become dead to us and we can wear with honor The Armor of God.
Have you ever felt His silence? What was happening in your mind, in your life during this time? How did you react?
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Still, as difficult as this road has been, the rewards have been twice as powerful. The reward of knowing that my children will have their mother, not an absent parent. The reward of knowing others have found comfort in the testimonies shared here, if only for a moment. Just long enough to spark the fire of recovery within them as well. These alone have been an honor I had underestimated and at times over looked.
I tell myself I am speaking up for those who can't. I tell myself that God gave me this gift not for my own purpose but for His works to be done. I tell myself of course there will be haters.
But none of that makes it any easier. Especially not when that hate and judgement is the same voice I have fought against my entire life.